2- days courses in the hotel ruined my diet and exercise efforts! :(

I have reached the state where I can't stand anymore lectures on how to climb the corporate ladder, what to learn, what to do, blah blah blah...
Imagine when you hear this thing almost every single day...I can certainly go crazy!
Keeping quiet is the best solution but i can't stand keeping quiet either!

I responded by saying that I won't reach that stage...I may have left by then! When warned to be careful that my appraisal won't be good when i take maternity leave, i said the same thing,"I would have left by then!"

I thought this is a subtle way of saying, "Stop talking about it! I'm not interested!" I was wrong!!!

These comments hit me in return,"Why are you one-step behind?", "You have changed!" WTH!

what one-step behind?!?!?!? I'm just sick of this!!!!! You are right...I may have changed! I have changed to realize that there are many other more important things in my mind than climbing THAT LADDER!

Ok, i'll learn to keep quiet....tell me anything!!! Tell me that every single second!!!

Why am I reading these: "The Leader who had no title", "The 4-hour work week", "See you at the top", Forbes Magazine, etc. when my strong wish is to get married, settle down, have kids, take care of my kids and not leaving them at infant/child care??? How about preparing for GMAT and applying for MBA?

There is a big conflict between what I want and what my brain orders me to do!

Even the old man at the office could tell me straight to my face, that my actions are against my wish!

I always face this dilemma...

When I'm at work or attending some seminars, I will be so enthusiastic about it...I feel good to be contributing something, to be recognized...and to learn many great things out there. And i will have the strong feeling, which tells me this is what i'm supposed to do! this is where i belong!

But when I reach home, logging into FB changes my mind completely. By simply looking at my friends' wedding photos, how lovely one looks clad in the gorgeous wedding dress, the lovey dovey looks among couples, the cute babies they produce...I also want to be in their shoes!!!

Can't I have both????

That's the reason why my mother always changes topic when I talk about my MBA plan! No need! Guyz will be scared of you and nobody will marry you! Doomed!!! Haha...
The several failure attempts by her and her friends to matchmake me point to the same reason: "The guyz are scared of me, even without MBA yet!" Once she asked me to pretend to be stupid, so that I won't crush any guy's ego, hahaha...

Think, think, think....
Decide, decide, decide...

What do I want???

I hate people, who always think that they know best about me..
Imagine this scenario: one asked you a question, then before you even utter the answer, he already continues answering the question, based on his assumption on what you'll say...
Sok tahu banget kan....ihhhh, menyebalkan!!! The more I talk to you, the more certain I am that I made the correct decision years ago. Menyebalkan!!!!!

Another round of pampering myself: 1-hr massage right after work!
Whole body ached but at the end, all the tension for the past 1 month is finally gone :)

Happy V-day!

Only you know what I love the most :)
The huge Jimbaran Platter from Villa Bali, which can feed 4 people, was super yummy! Not the typical food for V-day dinner, but who cares? hahaha...as long as there is typical Indo chilli, I will certainly melt :)

I just treat myself to manicure, pedicure, and shopping spree as a reward for working 1-whole month on the 5-min final speech and delivering it well amidst the shaky legs behind the podium :)
Shiok!!!

Btw, I totally agreed with what my CEO mentioned on my graduation ceremony, that there are many people out there who are just good at talking...and talking really big, but are never in action, or even trash other's ideas! You won't see them succeeding! I have encountered them...and I hate them to the core!

I also hate those who love to complain! Can you just be thankful with what you have? No point comparing yourself to others, because no matter what, the fact of life is that there will always be someone out there who will get higher bonus than you do, who is earning much more than you do, who will be promoted earlier than you...so move on! Prove that you can do better than these people...and don't make your life so miserable by your continuous complaints!

Ok, enough of hating others...back to reality of working world! Time to continue working hard & smart!