It's time to go again...
It's time to pack up my cubicle...
It's time to wrap up everything...

I was surprised to hear this when I announced that Thursday is my last day in this department: "We are really impressed by your work, thank you so much for your contribution in the past 4-5 months."

It sets me thinking,"What have I done??!?!?!?! What have I contributed?!?!?!?"

It's so different from the previous one, when I know that I have done a lot and I deserve that praise...but right now,hmmmmm....I still dont understand why i deserve that sentence! And the feeling in me is also different from the previous one. I don't feel sad at all! haha...I just feel that it's the right time to move on...

Not to think so much, i shall take it on a positive light! Let the good impression stays forever :)

Off to Jakarta for Natasha's wedding!!!

The end of JEMP marks the end of countless sleepless nights and distorted body clock. When we took the 1st train early morning today to do line clear over the sector, where the rails were replaced, we heaved a sigh of relief. I felt so COOL when I took the cab ride over this sector...simply because I was one of the first few people, who went over it!!! (Darren & Nazri always laugh at me over this thought!)

We felt extremely good when at the end of the day, our efforts were recognized by the big bosses and it's so touching to see how grateful they are for such a successful project. Two thumbs up to the workers, who had been working round the clock, to rush the connection of the rails. Unbelievable!!!

To celebrate the end of this, I treat myself to an hour full body massage in the afternoon...damn shiok!!!

My 3rd visit to the doctor concluded that my Asthma is BACK!!! I did suffer from asthma when I was very very young (2-3 years old) and I have recovered from it...but sadly, the doctor said, "You can't change the genes in your body! The asthma will still come back." I stared at him in shock as he continued,"Asthma attack is not always like what you see in the movie..." and he acted out what we always thought how asthma attacks a person....

Thank goodness, the doctor is handsome and his action is entertaining....Apparently non-stop coughing for months may also mean that you are suffering from asthma. Look at what i have to start inhaling from now till my airway is cleared:


Sickness aside, i just came up with a master plan for myself for the next 2-3 years, depending on what fate offers. I had the thought that probably I should pursue MBA in China and at the same time, i can really learn and practice Mandarin by hard. Along the way, i would find contacts for plastic products manufacturer and through these contacts, maybe i can bring in cheaper products to my hometown to sell, thus my parents' business can continue. Isn't my dream big? haha...

I did research on which school to go and all the admission process...and I concluded that if i were to enroll, the earliest would be in Aug 2012, considering many reasons. And that means i would be 27 years by then. The MBA full-time program will take 18 months and that will make me 28.5 years when I graduate. Probably my Mr. Right is somewhere in China and I will find him there, and i will get married by 29??? Not too late for Singapore standard, right?

I spent half a day thinking, researching, and dreaming...There is one condition to this plan though. All the plans will be deemed invalid if i can find my Mr. Right before Aug 2012 and probably i can get married on 20-12-2012!!!! That's the last nicest date that I can have for my wedding date. After that date, you can't form any nice dates,haha...(Based on my discussion with Tessie.)

I got so engulfed with my big master plan and suddenly I remembered one thing: MY BOND!!!!!!!!!! I still wouldnt have cleared my 6-years bond by Aug 2012...it's only 4 years cleared by then! Arggghhhh.....WTF!

Haiz....you see how important finding Mr. Right is. It can really save me from many problems, not to mention new problems that may arise due to Mr. Right though.

If I have already found Mr. Right,
1. I would know where I will settle down
2. I would know whether I shall continue with the current job or not
3. I would know whether my bond shall be broken or not
4. I would know whether I shall continue with my MBA plan or not
5. My parents will be less worried as their only daughter is already taken care of by someone
6. My parents can retire soon
7. My parents can start travelling around the world
8. Lastly, I can start planning for my OWN wedding, like many of my friends have been doing or had gone through...

As for now, i have to leave with all these uncertainties...haiz...

There are 2 big tunnels in my life: the career tunnel and the love tunnel.
The career tunel is brightly-lit with some guides along the tunnel, always readily available to guide me along as i step forward...
The love tunnel, on the other hand, is dark...not even a single spark can be seen at any part of the tunnel. Moving forward is a risk as I don't know what lies ahead of me. That probably explains why i don't even dare to stand at the mouth of the tunnel and I spend most of my time inside the career tunnel. I always wonder when the first light will ever light up that love tunnel.
Right now, i'm living in a fear...a fear that my life will still be the same 2 years from now...that the career tunnel will continue to be brighter and the love tunnel stays dark!

I rarely fall sick but when I do, it can take months to recover!
I have not recovered from a very bad cough since a month ago...and I see no way I can recover with my current lifestyle:
27 Aug: JEMP Night work, slept at 3am
28-29 Aug: Overnight chalet, slept at 7am on 29 Aug
1 Sep: JEMP Night work, walk 8 km overnight, slept at 6 am on 2 Sep
3 Sep-4 Sep: JEMP, work from 12am to 12pm, slept at 2 pm on 4 Sep
4 Sep-5 Sep: JEMP, work from 12am to 12pm
5 Sep-6 Sep: JEMP, work from 12am to 10am
17 Sep - 19 Sep: Another round of overnights JEMP work

Went to see doctor twice...changed medicine twice...and still not getting any better...still infect other people some more...

Oh man, this is the life that I choose, so no complaint!
If my ex-boss heard this, he would say this,"Where got time to go dating? You must go dating k..." haha...

This surely makes me smile :)