Thursday, 25 March 2010

My ex-housemate is in town...with a diamond ring - a great news that she's getting married!!!!!
I still remembered one-and-a-half year go when the 2 of us spent the whole night chitchatting about love & relationship and about our fate, which were similar back then. We made the same wish together and her wish came true!!!!! So so happy for her...especially after seeing her so happy and loving with her fiance.

I am really a big loser in this particular area called "LOVE & RELATIONSHIP"...haiz...
I am wishing that after all my good friends get married, i will be so numb to this marriage issue, that i wont cry over my fate anymore...

I hate it when my colleagues start asking about, "So when are you planning to buy house? Can buy BTO what...how's ur Chinese lessons? So can communicate with the parents already ah?" I can only reply with a 'fake' smile, and nothing else....

For Fusta's marriage, which is only a month away, i will start to be in action real soon...after being handed the responsibility to be the main coordinator of the wedding....so so excited for her...

I need strength to survive the reality of life! And I am wondering when will i be happy & excited over my own love life...hmmm...

Friday, 12 March 2010

I tend to spend more time with a group of uncles than a group of young men...and amazingly i click better with them...
I received lots of advice, heard lots of life stories, heard stories about their wives and their children...
I love those stories...and i wish one day, my future husband will talk to their colleagus the same way these uncles talk about their wives...
But looking at my current state, do u think i can find a future husband if i continue hanging out with uncles? haha...
Will i ever f.i.l again? Hmmm...wondering hard...

Sunday, 7 March 2010

Up in the Air

just came back from watching 'Up in the Air' with the girls...and i must say that i love the show!!! so many interesting quotes, from which we can learn more about life...

I was charmed by George Clooney ( as always) that even a 12-midnite show could keep me awake for 2 hours...

Clooney's quotes that i'd never forget:
1. "Anybody who ever built an empire, or changed the world, sat where you are now. And it's *because* they sat there that they were able to do it." - his punch line that he mentioned to the person that he's going to fire

2. "We are here to make limbo tolerable, to ferry wounded souls across the river of dread to point where hope is dimly visible, and to stop the boat, shove them in the water and make them swim" - to describe what Clooney's job is, which is basically to fire people

3. "How much does your life weigh? Imagine for a second that you're carrying a backpack. I want you to pack it with all the stuff that you have in your life.............you start with the little things... Now I want you to fill it with people..................... and then you move into the people you trust with your most intimate secrets. Your brothers, your sisters, your children, your parents and finally your husband, your wife, your boyfriend, your girlfriend. You get them into that backpack, feel the weight of that bag. Make no mistake your relationships are the heaviest components in your life. All those negotiations and arguments and secrets, the compromises. The slower we move the faster we die. Make no mistake, moving is living." - love the messages behind these long sentences!

4. "Everyone needs a co-pilot" - that's how Clooney, ironically, convinced his brother-in-law-to-be, who was on cold feet on the day of his marriage, to change his mind and continue with the marriage

5. "You know that moment when you look into somebody’s eyes and you can feel them staring into your soul and the whole world goes quiet just for a second..." - that's when you know that you have found the right co-pilot!

The fourth one hits me the hardest. It's so true...you can easily claim that you dont mind being alone for the rest of your life but you are actually lying! You cant live alone...you need a companion...you need someone to share your joy and sorrow...and as you age, you tend to lower the expectation of your co-pilot - the right one who will share your life!

Saturday, 6 March 2010

Tessie messaged me, "Lyd, u look stressed recently...my sis spotted it on your recent pictures."

Spot-on!!! I cant hide that stress anymore...people can spot it right from my face!

well, 'quarter-life stress' summarizes it all!
Not knowing how your future will be; not knowing what and where u'll be in the next 5-10 years; not even having the capability of charting your own future with so many uncertainties in the current moment; societal pressure; biological pressure; and the list goes on...

Sometimes locking myself up in my room and immersing myself 100% in work helps to temporarily suppress all the problems that i have...but sadly, it doesn't solve them! it even makes some problems worse!