Random blabber

As the biological clock continues to tick, my brain continues to deteriorate. I have a hard time remembering the new people that I meet almost daily...the next time I see them, only the word 'Hallo', instead of 'Hallo so-and-so', comes out of my mouth. It's really bad rite!

Then sometimes those I-met-before-but-I-cant-remember-your-name people pass by my cubicle and talk to me...it feels really bad that i dont even know their name, yet I still continue with the conversation as if I know them well,haha...

This afternoon, one person walked past my cubicle, then suddenly walked back, just to tell me that he couldnt believe that I graduate from Mechanical Engineering...He said I look like someone, who should be in the Finance industry,hahaha...the conversation went on...ended with a 'Bye', and I couldnt even remember where I met him before...

Now I'm forcing myself to record the new people that I meet daily...I really pen their full name and where they are from...cant rely on my brain anymore!

Mom will be in town next week, yeaaaah!!!! then i'll be flying off to Jakarta over the weekend...and my aunty already planned for a trip to Bandung...Well, i havent been there but i dont really look forward to it as my time in Jakarta is very very limited...only a total of one-and-a-half day, and I want to cut my hair and go shopping!!! arrgh....hopefully i still have time to do it a few hours before my flight back to Singapore.

Then after coming back to Singapore, my cousin will be coming down from the US, as he got a job here!!! This is the best news ever...I will be lonely no more!!! Finally I have a close relative here!!!! And after his one-month stay in the catered Serviced Apartment by the company, he'll be staying with me :) No more staying alone!!!!! Probably I will have chance to hang out with his high-flyer banking friends??? haha....keep dreaming, Lydia!

If i were given a chance to make 3 wishes right now, here they are:
1. I wish that I could go to a foreign land, far far away from where I am now, where I could start everything anew, close the current chapter of my life and open a new one!
2. I wish to undergo a brain wash, where all the memories can be erased from my mind!
3. I wish that I'm 7 years younger than my current age!

Well, none of the above is possible right now!

By the way, yesterday was my first time at MacRitchie Reservoir. I went there to recce the place to hold Active Race for my company's Active Day. The weather was so cooling that it'd have been a perfect day to go out dating...


I managed to catch the following picture...see how romantic the place is! Lovely couple at a lovely spot :)

A tinge of satisfaction...

I just came back from my 2nd voluntary activity in SMRT: bringing the elderly from the Geylang East Home for the Aged to Esplanade for MoonFest celebration. I expected the elderly to be mostly wheelchair-bound...but i was wrong, almost all of them are mobile!

Anyway, I was standing at one side guiding some of the elderly as they were leaving our first stop and there was this uncle, who suddenly stretched his hand towards mine, wanting to grab my hand. I held his hand and he became my partner for that night. With my very pathetic Chinese, I communicated with him...I could imagine him being very handsome when he was young,haha...

It was drizzling and as a result, we couldnt play with the lanterns :( The uncle chose to sit on the wheel chair, as it'd be easier for him to move around outside. He was holding the umbrella passed to him by another volunteer, and he kept on asking how about me. Amidst my repeated statement that I was OK without umbrella, he held the umbrella higher so as to cover me...We were in a very unique arrangement...me pushing his wheelchair from behind, while his hand was raised up high so as to cover me! I was so touched!!!

We watched a very beautiful & soothing live Chinese orchestra performance...the 45-mins performance was simply lovely! The songs were mostly oldies, but I love them. After the performance, we parted...and that's how my Saturday date came to an end!

It's painful!

When i just came to Singapore, I used to cry almost every day for about 6 months...About 10 years later, I'm experiencing it again for a different reason! shit...it sucks!!! I prefer crying while bathing, as the running water helps smoothen the flow of tears as they are in the same direction...I hate it when i was standing inside the train or sitting on the bus or walking along the road, then suddenly the stupid tears start to well up in my eyes! It's easier though to draw the eyeliner in the morning when my eyes are swollen from the previous night's crying session,haha...

I wonder how long this will last...how much strength I have, to produce tears daily...arrrghhhhh...it sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate this feeling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why cant i continue to live in a dream? A dream that everything's alright...A dream that things will turn out well in the end...