Stupid...

She's really stupid to let herself to be trapped in this situation...
She needs to break free...She needs to do it really soon...
She would rather shed the tears now rather than doing it in the future...
And why does jealousy always envelope her everytime she hears that name? Things always turn out wrong when that person's in the picture...Why should that person deprive her of the time that may be hers? Even work can be neglected when it's related to that person...If that person is another person, would he sacrifice the exact amount of time, amidst piling workload? She doubts so...she has even proven it right...
Arrrgh....But maybe she should thank that person...that person may bring freedom to her...
Whatever it is, she doesnt know that person! haha...

Changi Airport!

For the first time, i managed to get to Changi Airport's transit area, without having a ticket and passport on my hand...just a card tapping and fingerprint detection, and there i was...immersed in the sea of travellers...The saddest thing is that i wasn't there to fly but i was there for work!

I was seated at one of the cafes in T2 overlooking the runways...and a SilkAir plane was parked right in front me...The only thought that came to my mind was how i wish i could just get to the plane and fly back home, where i could sleep as long as i wish and be treated like a princess! haha...well, back to reality...i was there for a couple of hours, and i had to get out of that transit area the same way i got in...

Btw, i think my 'don't care' attitude is really seeping through my soul...and it's working well! I don't feel guilty anymore! haha...

Dreams

How often do you dream while sleeping? And what do you usually dream of?

I always have a dream every single day when sleeping...most of the time, those dreams will be forgotten when i woke up and there were times when the dreams were so vivid in my mind...

I have been dreaming a lot abt work recently...There was one night when i dreamt that i needed the contacts of heat pump supplier from one of my colleagues and one colleague passed it to me. That dream happened exactly on the day when i really had to get the contact of the supplier from one of my colleagues, but in the dream, the one who passed me the contact was different from the reality and the contact number was from different company! haha...

Another night i dreamt that the architect scolded me so badly over the phone over things that i couldnt remember...and this dream happened exactly a week after i was really scolded by the architect...

Almost every day one or two of my colleagues will appear in my dream, even my direct boss...One night i even dreamt that my boss became a pilot!!! hahahah.....And the way he flew the plane was very funny...

How do i change the topic of my dreams? Why cant i dream of becoming a princess? Or dream of becoming a tai-tai? haha...

Oh btw, i'm currently learning to adopt the 'Don't care' attitude...wish me luck!

I FELT SO GOOD TODAY!!!

simply because i manage to scold someone! haha...not really scold actually, it just that i spoke to him in a rather unhappy tone over the phone, that my colleague even asked me," Wah, why u talked like that?" after putting down the phone...
I was quite fed up of being asked to do unnecessary things and i felt that i was being bullied...so i managed to escape from this bullying action, and I WON! haha...

It felt so heavenly to be able to reach home when the sky is still bright and to have time to cook my dinner, instead of re-heating, which i normally do,haha...

Btw, i think my previous posts sound very pathetic, with some friends showing concern...haha, actually all those posts were written when i was extremely emotional...i was still angry after writing those posts, but not as angry as when those incidents happened in the office...Overall, this big h00-haa has taught me a few lessons:
- You can't trust someone fully! There are many people out there whose level of responsibility is not equal to yours, even though they may have a longer work experience than you are...
- There is no point blaming others, since you work in a team...If it's not done, it simply means it's not done...and you just have to get it done and stop relying on others, even though they may have already promised you that they'd do it...
- Don't let emotions affect your words...think twice before you utter or write anything to other party...

Suddenly i heard a few "Sorry" being uttered to me today, because of this issue...well, what can a "sorry" do, when eventually i was the one who finished up everything? Anw, this whole issue has come to a close, with the final submission today...I felt extremely satisfied after pressing that 'send' button...

Anw, i am wondering what has happened to some of my colleagues recently...apparently some of my colleagues suddenly have a tendency to brag where they go for a meeting, or whether they just got new prospective project...it just made me recall my own experience...I never really tell the whole world where i usually go for meeting, unless someone asked me...and even though I got prospective projects to do, I never really tell the whole world too, unless being prompted...I will just finish up my work quietly...Then what has happened to some of my colleagues? Without prompting, they could just go on and on saying where they went, where they would be going...and their faces showed that they are not really happy, yet they are bragging!! haha..dont understand them, is it because of stress? Or is it just me? Maybe other people behaves that way....but sometimes i felt that it's really unnecessary for you to do that...

ok, enough story for today...time to hit the sack!