It's getting nearer...to the finishing line

But others have crossed that line...

Some of my graduating friends' interesting MSN nicks:
"ORD le", "Graduate!", "It's over...", "School's over...what's next?", "Free from the strangle of NUS...", "School no more..."

I still dont deserve putting those lines in my nick, and i dont wish to do it so soon (although i want the exams to end soon!)...1 more week to go, so far only 3MCs cleared, 16 more MCs to go within next week...

Maybe i shall put this as my msn nick,"Markov Chains...Birthday problem...Powerball...Roulette...Simpson's Paradox...De Mere's Problem...Monty Hall Problem...Prosecutor's Fallacy..." Arrrghhhh, i hate this module...

I have concluded that "Learning Statistics is like learning C Programming...Either you know it or you don't!"

What a module to end my undergraduate life!

The very FINAL exams

I need luck to get what i want...
And i hope luck will be upon me starting tmr...the start of my very final exams!
More 'Good Luck' wish please...haha...

How i wish i can spend every afternoon, sitting by the pond, enjoying the serenity of the surrounding with practically nothing in my mind...

TWO MORE MONTHS to .................;) ;) ;)

(guess urself!)

I DONT WANT TO LEAVE NUS!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, the title says it all...
I had my last lecture yesterday...
I had my last perfect lunch at NUS Engin canteen this afternoon (a plate of Malay food & a glass of Carrot red apple juice)...
I borrowed my last book from NUS library this afternoon...
I printed a few stuffs at Computer centre lab yesterday (and that'd be the last too)...
I entered my FYP Prof's office for the last time yesterday...

The more i think of all these last moments in NUS, the more i wish i'm not a Year 4 student...haha, it's weird rite? I can still imagine myself attending lectures and tutorials next semester, but sadly there'd be no more 'next semester'...

I met the PGP security guard, whom i had not seen for months this morning...When he found out that i'm graduating this semester, he was really shocked at how fast time flies. It seems that it was only yesterday I begged him to let me use the study room till late at night even though he was ordered to switch off the study room lights by 11 pm...He was the uncle who helped me find another study room for me and my friends to study when the aircon in my usual study place broke down...He was the uncle who can really testify on how hardworking i was during Year 1 and Year 2,haha...After my 2nd year, he was promoted to another position and i rarely saw him...till this morning!

The fruit juice uncle and aunty at Engin canteen are another ones that i'd vividly remember. Since Year 1, i have been patronizing their stall regularly and i only order Carrot-red apple juice for the whole of 4 years!!! And both the uncle and aunty can even recognize me...I just need to stand in front of their stall with a smile, and the uncle will make a glass of carrot-red apple juice...or sometimes when i was still in the queue, the aunty would just shout to the uncle "Carrot hong ping kuo, da pao", hahaha...i gonna miss that cheap carrot-red-apple juice that has successfully sustained the degree of my eyes!!!

haiz...i gonna miss a lot of things...a lot of people...and if i were to really reminisce the past 4 years, i can just spend whole day listing down all the things that i'd miss...maybe i shall do it after exams!!!

Anyway, after having to fork out a lot of $$$$$ for rental deposit, agent fee, and all those administrative fee for renting an apartment, i really wish that i could stay in my PGP room forever, with such a low rental and without having to bother about water & electricity bill and internet bill and what-so-ever...Another reason for me to miss NUS...

I had lunch with Gaci & tez for the last time today at engin canteen, and we went to take pictures outside LT7A (where our first lecture was held)...and outside the Faculty of Engineering sign...After exams, there will be more photo shots ard NUS with my ME gang: Diah & Evan...haha...




This is really a good place to take picture especially after commencement. I really love the "Faculty of Engineering" sign with the reflection of trusses at the background...it just reminded me of Statics & Mechanics module that i learnt in Year 1,hahaha...

Missing someone...

Exactly a year ago, at this time, i was standing at Piazza San Marco in Venice, which I found to be the most beautiful and romantic square that i have ever visited. I personally think this place is even more romantic than Eiffel Tower,haha...But you have to visit this place at night to see its best and feel the romanticism on the air. Although there were lots of people in this square, amazingly you can feel that the square is yours...It's so beautifully lit and the soothing live music at the background played outside a few high-class restaurants made it even more a perfect place for lovers! The canals and gondolas surrounding it add another peaceful effect to the whole setting.

My friends and I even came up with a possible romantic scenario. Imagine that you can book the whole square for your wedding...you just need to chase all the pigeons and cover the whole place with red carpet...Nobody can enter the square, except your invited guests...there will be lots of nice food, and the guests can dance there as well...and at the end of the whole wedding party, there will be fireworks from behind the cupola! How perfect it's!!! And there is even a story which says that if you are proposed in Piazza San Marco, you just have to accept it!!! It's just too romantic...

Anyway, I still remember as i was walking around the square, I thought of someone...and i really wished that someone was there with me...

Exactly a year later, at the same time, i'm stuck in my room typing this blog, with a totally opposite surrounding...but the same wish is still there...the wish that i could be with that someone at this point of time!

Random

YEAH!!! I finally got my FYP first draft back after almost 2 weeks of waiting...

I was praying hard that i dont need to make lots of changes to my report, coz honestly i have not been touching any FYP-related stuffs since the submission of this report, and getting back the momentum to do FYP again is kinda hard...I couldnt decipher what he wrote at first glance and had to ask his secretary to help me read,haha...And i was really jumping for joy when i found out what the comment was,hahahaha...Not only that, after flipping through, i found out that the corrections to be made were really really minor!!! a few grammatical errors in about 2 pages out of my 100-odd pages of report...and THAT'S ALL!!!!! I'm so so so relieved!!!

There are only 2 possible reasons to this. Either my prof was so busy that he did not have enough time to scrutinize my report or what i really wrote was correct. I really hope that it was for the latter.I also need to be thankful that i dont need to re-print the whole report for 2nd draft coz it cost me more than $30 for 1 set...

Looking back for the past 8 months, i'm really really grateful for everything. I did complain a lot of times throughout this project...I had sleepless nights as well, especially during the simulation period - the most stressful period, during which i was struggling to learn the software and at the same time hoping that when the simulation worked, its results will be similar to my experimental results, else i had to re-do the experiments again. Thankfully, everything worked as expected! And i have to thank lots of parties for this: my prof, lab uncle, Computer centre engineer, my prof's secretary, and those who are indirectly related to this project: my parents, my brother, my bf and my good friends, who had patiently listened to all my updates and complaints,haha...Thanks a lot!!!

Well, enough about FYP...I just had an interesting conversation with my grandma recently. I was telling her that i'd be graduating this July and asking her to attend my convocation. She was superbly excited after hearing that, and the next question she asked me, "When are you going to get married?" I was speechless!!! hahaha...and i had to reply to her disappointment,"errr...not so soon!" When my mum asked her why she wanted me to get married soon, she mentioned that she wanted to carry her grandchildren soon, and my mum had to correct her, "No, not your grandchildren, your great grandchildren." Well, i think i'm going to face the same question more often in time to come...and i dont foresee answering that question with certainty at the moment...

Just a random question:"Have you ever hated the situation that you are at but not the person involved in it?"

"You know that you want something to happen so badly when you dream of it everyday"
~Lyd~

I REMEMBER!!! I REMEMBER!!!
I FINALLY REMEMBER THAT GUY!!!

hahaha...what a great satisfaction!!! first i saw his name on facebook and i can really confirm that i know him coz that name is really really familiar! It just took me seconds before i remember that he's actually frm Rotaract Club,hahaha...he was one of the ex-co members during my first year in Rotaract!!! Hmmm, i think my power of imagination is quite reliable!!! i really couldnt imagine him wearing my JC uniform, and true enough he's not frm my JC! hahaha...and now i can imagine him attending Rotaract meetings, and i'm really 100% sure that he was frm Rotaract...
Gosh, it took me more than 1 month to figure this out,haha...

What can i do???

I'm getting increasingly more emotional when i heard or read about the endless problems faced by the world. The soaring food price is an example. I was moved to tears when i read this article by the Straits Times on how a poor family in Indonesia copes with the rising price of staple food and oil.

"A meagre wage of 30,000 rupiah (S$4.50) a day to feed a family of six...since the middle of last year, the family has mostly subsisted on rice, fried tofu and tempe - the basic staple of most Indonesians. Eggs and vegetables show up on the dinner table only on special occasions...a 2kg bag of rice has more than doubled in price from 3,000 rupiah to 8,000 rupiah, eggs from 9,000 rupiah a kg to 13,000 rupiah, tofu and tempe from 5,000 rupiah a packet to 14,000 rupiah, and salted fish from 5,000 rupiah a packet to 10,000 rupiah...We also have to ration how much we eat as it is barely enough for all six of us...the two-years old son only gets to drink milk occasionally...gone are the days when he and his family could eat out, treating themselves to a bowl of mee bakso or noodle soup, which costs around 3,000 rupiah..."

Actually the problem of poverty and starvation have existed since antiquity, but i had been too ignorant simply because it never affects me. And the problems just get worse year after year...Just imagine how lucky we are...a bowl of mee bakso for 3000 rupiah (45 Singapore cents) is considered as a luxury for this particular family!!! And this family is not the only one, they are just one out of countless families who is struggling to survive.

On the other side of the story, there are people who spend US$10,000 for a package that will enable their ashes to be sent to the moon after they died so that their family members, who are still alive on planet earth can look up to the moon and said "My so-and-so is resting peacefully on the moon." Another scenario is those people who paid S$13,200 for a night stay at the hotel so as to watch the upcoming F1 race at the comfort of their room's balcony.

Ok, i'm not trying to criticize these people, it's their hard-earned money!!! And it's their rights to spend every single cent of it on anything that they want. I am just feeling guilty (even though it's not my fault,haha) to see these 2 extreme cases and i will start to imagine what will happen if this large sum of money is actually used to help the poor! A nice story with a happy-ending unfolds in my mind...but it's just a dream, that will never become a reality, considering so many factors that complicate my story in the real world.

Haiz...what can i do? At the moment, i am just engulfed by a feeling of guilt whenever i spend $$$ on something that is not really necessary...

A promise

I just made a promise...that i'm struggling to keep day by day...It's really hard though , but i'm trying to stick by it ;(